March 4, 2014, 12:23 PM

Jules From Heaven

Due Time

Back in the early 90’s our family was going through a season of great uncertainty and a complete career shift. God had asked my husband and me to step down from full-time ministry after being youth pastors for six years and senior pastors for almost three years.  The closest reason we could think of why the Lord would ask this of us was the same purpose that Jesus had to be led into the wilderness.  In the beginning stages of this season, we went through immense confusion and unrest.  There were many times we were misunderstood, rejected, betrayed and despised.  This not only came from on-lookers but from many of our closest allies.  Many times I would think, “If there was just some way to open up the invisible realm of our hearts and let them see what’s really in there, they wouldn’t have this judgment about us.”  To say the least, our faith was extremely tested.


There was one particular day that I had just gotten home from an event and was so frustrated.  I went to the laundry room to start a load of dirty clothes and remember thinking, “God, I just can’t do this anymore.  Why would you even allow this?”  Tears that I had cried so many times weren’t even possible anymore.  All the pain had just settled into anger and revenge.  It was not more than a millisecond when I heard the voice of the Lord speak back to me and say, “Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God, and in due time He will exalt you.”  Wow…something supernatural flooded into me that day.  It started a resolve in my inner being to cling to Him and to not put my trust in man or his ability to promote me. 


Needless to say, after thinking this “wilderness sabbatical” would only last maybe six months, we were kept there for six years under the direction of the Lord’s loving voice.  Over time our situation became easier and easier.  We adjusted to not defending ourselves and learned to completely rely on God for our defense; learning to put our entire trust in Him for every single move and decision we made.  The Holy Spirit took us through a rigorous fine-tuning of motives in great depth, stripping us of anything that we could have taken the credit for or could have shown to be our own accomplishment of strength.  And ultimately we learned the foundational truth that we could not do anything unless we heard our Father tell us so.  Sound familiar?  Didn’t Jesus Himself say, “I only do what I see my Father doing.”?


Fast forward to our most recent years, the wisdom of the Lord in His development of our lives and calling has become astounding.  We are able to hear the voice of God in much greater capacity.  We don’t make the same mistakes we used to with our actions or our words.  Our relationships exist in love and understanding and not in manipulation.  We are able to see now who people really are on the inside before they even realize who they are because we were emptied of accusation and judgment.  Where we had very few friends in our past, we now have an abundance of family, friends and partnerships that we allowed the Lord to bring into our lives when He was ready.  The desires of our hearts are finally coming true.


I find myself saying over and over, “Isn’t God smart?!”  To most of us that would seem like a “DUH”??  But when we truly wait and surrender to what God wants to do in us, even when it seems like it should go faster, we yield a much greater reward of joy and peace.  We begin to exist in contentment, confidence, and love.  Our need to control everything around us dissipates, and the Lover of our soul finally becomes all we need.


Be encouraged by this today.  You may have powerful ideas and dreams inside of you.  Your whole existence seems driven by it.  Day by day it grows and expands.  But without the container of character and the love of God, you will never be able to fully accomplish it.  Our Father wants you to become more than you know.  He made you.  And He’s actually pretty excited about who you are about to become if you can dare to give Him your self-will, self-reliance and man-made power.  His ways of training you for your harvest are higher than earthly ways.



So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.  Galatians 6:9